The Heart Needs

One thing I pray for is for God to remember I am only human. I often pray for God to overwhelm me, to break my heart for what breaks His, to open my eyes to see hurt the way He sees it, but to remember I am only human. The prayers are almost contradictory. There is no way I can have my heart broken the way sin breaks God's heart, I would not be able to comprehend or contain the emotion. God does remember we are only human.

I was talking with a friend about the idea of crazy DTS stories. The DTS before us has many stories of healing; I came to Nepal expecting to see miraculous healing daily. While we have seen healing and struck up conversations with complete strangers who are somehow tied to YWAM or to our contacts here in Kathmandu, everyday is not the crazy story you read in the books.  God doesn't need crazy stories to work, He simply needs a willing heart.

I believe God remembers I am only human He takes care of the heart needs of His children, He notices our every desire and our passion. When we align our hearts with God's, He so beautifully provides for us. Maybe seeing a a dread man raised to life was not what I needed to see God, maybe holding a baby was. Maybe seeing a crippled man stand straight would not have brought God as much glory in my life as cutting a woman's hair. He remembers that I am only human, He notices what my human soul needs.

There is a long concrete wall near our home people have
decided to spray paint with revolutionary pictures and quotes.
This picture took hold of my heart. 

God will not give us anything out of His magnificent timing. He knows our every need and what provision will sufficiently satisfy that need. Sometimes we need to see Him grow a hand back, sometimes we need a hug, sometimes we need to hear the laughter of a mute baby, sometimes we need a latte with a beautiful design in the foam, sometimes we need to feel the rain in the middle of a drought, sometimes we need a nap. The way He so preciously takes care of our unique and individual needs always amazes me. He takes captive of our every dream and passion and raptures our hearts by fulfilling these deep yearnings He gave us.

I was reading an article the other day about how we millennial, especially in the church, are being pumped with the mentality of rising to greatness in such a way that we are looking over our everyday lives resulting in us never finding satisfaction in God because we label His miracles of simply living another day as mundane. I think that is the biggest thing I'm learning on outreach, is to stop looking for these huge things and realize I'm living in the huge miracle of God's creation surrounded by millions of little miracles. No person is in more need or has greater value than the person God puts before us. In our paths will fall the right people.