The Beginning

Then I heard the voice of the Lord say, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I! Send me!" 

Isaiah 6:8

It all began the day I was knit together in my mothers womb. God knit in my the passion to serve and the passion for international adventure. As I began a personal relationship with my Lord and Savior, I told God, "Here am I! Send me!" He took my willing heart, and is sending me.

60 days before April 4, I began 60 Day Prayer. For 60 days I prayed what I am to do in the fall. I simply said, "God, what am I to do in the fall?" Day 34 Mom suggested looking into YWAM and so I did. I began looking and found YWAM Las Vegas which focuses on orphan care in Mexico and South America and it felt right, I felt God smiling down on me.  But I kept looking because this DTS program started in January. Friday morning I woke up and I knew I was to go to Las Vegas DTS, but I kept looking because I knew I was to go in the fall. I kept looking and looking at other YWAM destinations, but I knew it was Las Vegas. I told God, "God, I know I am to go in the fall though." And God said, "Well go look on the Las Vegas website!" Sure enough, God was right, He knew what I was doing. There is a Las Vegas DTS that leaves in August. I do not know when this was posted or why I never realized there was one that left in August. It was one of those moments when I had to sit there with my mouth open in shock of God. He never ceases to amaze me.

So here is the website for those who are interested. Even if you are reading this and do not really care about what I am doing, you are just curious the process I am under, I encourage you to watch the video on this page about missionaries. It makes my heart soar. http://ywamlasvegas.org/orphan-care-dts/

So, what am I doing now? Well, I sent in the finale part of my application yesterday. I am waiting for all my references to be sent in and the finale confirmation that I am accepted into the program. 

Right now, God is pruning me, and He is pruning a lot. I have given up school for the fall, easy. I have been cleaning out my room, knowing that Jesus commanded the rich young ruler to give his possessions to the poor, medium. I had to give up Alaska this summer, hard. Now He is calling me give up a relationship, nothing can say how incredibly hard this is. 

This is where I am at. To love the Lord my God with all my heart, soul and mind, I must let make sure I am not sharing my heart, soul and mind. As of right now, this is one of the hardest things I have ever done. God commands me stretch out my branches and let Him prune. He will cut away the branches that are not good for me. He loves me and knows what is best for my future. Does that make it easy? No. Does that mean I want God to prune me? No. I do not understand why God takes away the things He does. They are good things.

I feel like a little girl getting a shot at the doctors and my daddy is holding my hand. The tears are welling up in my eyes because it hurts, but my daddy is saying, "It's okay, I promise. This is good for you. It will keep you healthy." It is hard and it hurts, but I trust God. If I tell God I would like to be sent, I must allow Him to pack my bags. He know what I need for this journey, how much I can carry and what will hinder me from serving Him. I do not. Therefore I will trust Him not matter how painful it is. 

So that is where I am at! 5 days into the great YWAM adventure. I am in love with the Lord and so excited to be go with Him on this adventure!